I’d recommend you keep digging on this. I’ve found with myself if I keep asking myself the ‘why’ question, I can sometimes get to something substantial about what I believe about a situation. For example, maybe for me the line of questioning might continue like so (and honestly, this is just speaking for me, not trying to assume anything about you):
- I guess I’d be embarrassed.
what would happen then?
- well, they might think I’m a dork for nitpicking
why?
- well, I sorta am
then why mess with it at all? Are you really nitpicking?
- well, no. It did feel weird doing a fund raiser for an event that didn’t really happen.
so it _is_ important to you, then?
- yeah, but it may not be important to them
so it’s only okay to bring up things that you know are important to them?
- well, it’d avoid an awkward conversation
how do you know what’s important to them without talking to them?
- umm ...
why is it important to avoid an awkward conversation?
- umm ... cuz it stinks. I _hate_ awkward conversation. I stink at it, and if I ever get into one I end up saying really stupid things sometimes trying to get out of it - usually seems it would have been better to just not bring it up in the first place.
so ... if you stink at these sorts of conversations, seems your choices are do something about getting better at them, or continue to avoid them.
- ummm, can we talk about something else?
Like I said, I just took this down a path I’m familiar with myself - your own reasons may be very different. But what may be a small conflict here for you, could give you some interesting insight into things you can work on in your relationships with other people.
Hope some of this rambling is helpful.